I want to start this off by saying that I still love you. Leaving probably didn’t help when it came to that fact but I had to do what was best for me, and I guess that meant hurting you in ways that I will never be able to understand. I’m not saying that I was ever that important to you or that because of me you will never be able to trust someone who will only ever want to be close to you, but I want to tell you that I’m sorry. Sorry for setting you up for destruction. Sorry for letting my selfishness get in the way of your happiness. But if it’s any consolation I did it so that one day you could be happy. I left because I knew you deserved someone who actually would cherish your love in the way that it should be. So know that I still love you, that I really am sorry and even if you can never seem to forgive me that I will never hold it against you. You have always deserved so much more than what I was capable of giving to you.

All the things I did wrong:

I: I relied on someone for my happiness.

II: I love people more than I love myself.

III: I never asked for help.

IV: I asked for help.

V: I opened up.

VI: I had hope.

You deserve someone who is utterly obsessed with you.

To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself.

You don’t know me, you never will.

If giving leaves you feeling empty, you’re giving too much to the wrong person.

The best part about loving you,
was that
for a while,
I loved myself too.

When you judge another, you do not define them, you define yourself.

My first thought in 2015 will be you.

You dress in all black but have the most colorful mind.

It made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don’t want to lose someone, even if they don’t deserve our forgiveness.

it’s okay if the only thing you did today was breathe.

1. Always have a water bottle in your car

2. Carry an extra lighter (even if you don’t smoke)

3. Get something new where you go to eat often, not just your usual.

4. Make a budget for yourself

5. But don’t forget to give yourself some play money and always round up on how much things cost so you have money left over

6. If you’re texting someone, but nervous to send it, just click the fucking send button. You typed that shit out for a reason.

7. Stay out late, but wake up early. You’ll be glad you had all of your day.

8. If something makes you laugh until your sides hurt, write it down in the notes in your phone, you’ll want to remember that later.

9. When you’re talking to someone, and you suddenly think of something you want to say, put up a finger and wait for them to finish talking. It’ll help you remember what you wanted to say, but you won’t interrupt them.

10. Go to plenty of concerts. Especially outdoor ones. Get drunk with your friends, but not sloppy drunk. Just drunk enough to scream your favorite songs and dance without feeling embarrassed.

12. Always keep a change of clothes in your car. Including a pair of shoes. You never know.

13. Keep at least $20 cash on you at all times. Gas is usually cheaper when you pay with cash, and not everywhere you go to eat splits checks.

14. It’s okay to be sad, but try not to forget about what makes you happy.

15. Coupons are always fantastic.

16. If you think something is cute, fucking wear it. Don’t worry about what everyone else thinks. You’ll look great, I promise.

17. Sex stores are fun, even if you just want a good laugh.

18. Plan out your days off with your friends, that way you aren’t stuck around asking the “I don’t know what do you wanna do”

19. Don’t forget to remind your friends how much they mean to you.

20. If someone gives you a compliment, smile and say thank you. They wouldn’t say it, if they didn’t mean it.

21. Drink plenty of water. Not only does it keep you hydrated, but clears your skin.

22. I know you might want to be tan, but is it really worth being burnt and exposing yourself to all that skin cancer bull shit? No. Use at least SPF 15. It’s not that hard and you’ll still tan. So stop being a brat.

23. You’re allowed to be happy. Don’t ever let anyone tell you otherwise.

24. Aim to be better, not bitter.

25. Some days are better than others.

26. You can never over pack. Pack what you want. You’ll be glad you have options to choose from.

27. Take those extra hours at work. It’ll be worth it when you see your paycheck.

28. Clean your fucking room and make your bed you slob. It’ll look so much nicer and you’ll feel better you did it.

29. If you have to, make the first move. It’s scary, but someone has to do it.

30. Take plenty of pictures. Of the sunset, your food, your friends, your dog, selfies. Everything. That way, later when you scroll through your camera roll, you’ll remember everything about that day, good or bad.

I am an intense person. I don’t do things half way. I’m all in or all out. You either have all of me or you don’t get me at all.